Say What?

When I woke up this morning mommy told me that she had some suprising news for me. I was shocked to hear this and hoped that it would be something good.


She told me that in 6 days that we would be leaving Nena's house and ending our vacation. I didn't know how that would be such a big surprise. I was actually a little sad to hear this. I am having fun at Nena's. I have seen a lot of new things, met some new people and got to hang out by the pool everyday so far.


But then...she told me I would see Daddy in 6 days!!


This made me the happiest girl in the world! I can't wait to see my Daddy again.

Slow Down Little Girl...

When they placed you in my arms, you slipped into my heart.
-Author Unknown

Today my sweet Addison turns two months. It is going by so fast! She had her two month shots today and weighed 10 pounds 12 ounces and was 20 1/2 inches long. She is getting to be a big girl. Still the smallest out of the kids though. She was in the 50th percentile for her weight (unadjusted for her birth date), 30th percentile for her head(unadjusted) and 40th percentile for her length(unadjusted). She is now smiling which is always a bright spot in our day, is getting more control over her arms and legs and can help to hold her head up now. She loves taking baths and I think she would sit there for hours and let me pour the warm water over her. I could just eat her up after bath time when she smells so sweet! :) She is so much more alert now and scans the room for people when she hears them. She has a death grip and is a super strong girl. We have noticed that she may have some acid reflux so she is going on a prescription to help her with that, but besides that she seems to be progressing great. The Dr. said that since she was 5 weeks early that some things may take a little longer then we may have noticed with the boys, but by 6 months they expect them to be almost caught up.

Addison is loved by all of us so much. I love to walk into the room and see Blake catching a peek of Addison with a smile on his face. He is now starting to give her kisses on the cheek and touch her little feet. He has been the slowest to warm up to her. I think that there was intimidation with him because she was so small and had to be in the hospital. I think he wanted to make sure that she was going to be ok first. Alex is still infatuated with her and tells me all the time that he always wanted a little sister. He is a little confused about the whole gender thing though and asked me how I knew that she was a little girl and not a little boy. I explained that she did not have the boy parts but had her little girl parts. He sat there for awhile longer and then asked me if I was sure. lol...pretty sure honey! We are blessed to be her family.

Missing Him

In 10 days, on April 25th, it will be one year since my grandfather passed away. I am sad tonight...I am sad because he wasn't here for my birthday. I missed his phone call telling me hapy birthday and that he loved me. I missed him being at the hospital the night that I gave birth to Addison. I miss not having a picture of him with his great-granddaughter. How proud he was of the boys and how proud he would have been of Addison also. He is still so missed and so very much loved still. He is a hole that can never be replaced and a presence that is missed deeply.

Easter 2010

Here are some pics of the boys and Addison the night before Easter. The boys and I decorated eggs while Addison hung out in her swing and looked on!

Bluebonnets

Before mom left we took the kids to go take some pics in the bluebonnets. It was the first time that Alex had ever held Addison and he did great! Needless to say she does not enjoy sitting in a field full of flowers and weeds. They were all troopers though and it is a challenge getting 3 kids to all look good in one pic, but I think they turned out pretty cute!

We're Back...UGH!

Yesterday after taking in Addison to the pediatricians we were readmitted to the NICU. After weighing her at the pediatricians they took her temperature and realized that it was very low. Her initial temp was 96.4 and then they checked it two more times and it was 94.3 and then 95.4. Too low so they called the NICU and they had to readmit her. I know that she is in a good place that can monitor her and that there are worse things that could be wrong, but as a mother your heart breaks when you have to take your child to the hospital to have them stay. They had to place her in a closed isolette where she stayed until tonight. She has done good maintaining her temp so tonight they moved her to an open crib. YEAH! They have run every single test known to man and thank goodness that everything has come back negative and normal!! I am so happy that she is doing so great.

I long to be back at home with the boys and Alan and Addison. We keep saying that this isnt the way it was supposed to be, but God had different plans and he knows what is supposed to be and what we can handle. I am drained though. I want normalcy again and I want my family all under one roof. I want to be able to relax and not worry about what I can't control. I am thankful for all of the prayers that have been lifted up for our family. They have been what has kept us going and the strength when we thought there was none. I am thankful as I look around the NICU that Addison's problems pale in comparison to some of the other babies. There are some that have been there for months and my heart aches for their mothers and fathers. I am thankful that we will get to take our baby home in a few days while they will still have to wait, maybe even months to have their babies at home with them.

I thank God for Addison and her ability to be a fighter and thank you for my family that has been supportive through all of this!

Homeward Bound

     It's official, both Heather and little Addison came home today. The doctor's gave us a 100% USDA Prime rating on our new addition. There is a new sense of calm in the house because the boys know that the baby is "trying to nap" and really needs her rest.